For all of the time that I’ve been in recovery I’ve been struggling with the God part, the spiritual part. In my “logical” mind I unquestioningly figured that I had to understand and explain God before l could accept God and live by spiritual principles. It was more than a little bit arrogant to think I could answer a question which has baffled the greatest minds of civilization; but then arrogance is very high on my list of character defects.
I just finished 10 days of hiking in the Rocky Mountain National Park in Colorado. It was the most spiritual condition I’ve ever been in. While I was there I came upon a beautiful, liberating realization. I realized that as a mere mortal, I will NEVER understand God. But much more importantly than that, I realized that I don’t HAVE to understand God to pray and to live by spiritual principles. In fact, ceasing the struggle to explain God has led me to a much better relationship with God and has freed me to live in a much more spiritual manner than ever before.
Or, as someone put it at a meeting: I don’t have to know the name of the bus driver to ride on the bus.
Wishing you the best,
Don P.