Being rigorously honest has meant that I am truthful to myself about what I am thinking and feeling. I have a large capacity for self-deception. For instance, I was a very angry person but did not realize it. I had fears that controlled many of my actions. But if anyone had asked me if I was fearful, I would have said “no,” believing that to be an honest answer. It took me a long time to realize just how much I was trying to manage and control my life; at the same time I believed I was surrendering control to my Higher Power.

In each of these cases, I experienced freedom once I got honest with myself. My actions are no longer dictated by anger and fear. I have begun learning how to truly surrender control of my life to my Higher Power, and I no longer have to work so hard at managing everything. I am free.