When choosing between meditation to know God’s will and helping the person in need, God’s will was immediately revealed.

The Solution says, “We began practicing a positive sobriety, taking the actions of love to improve our relations with others” (SA 205). A recent experience that made me grow describes this quote. Last month, I visited my aunt. I spent money from my tight budget and traveled for over a day to visit her, since she now depends on others. It was stressful to find the right ticket, make several plane stops, run to catch one, and—worst of all—be bloated. The only sure thing I knew was that I would have lustful temptations.

The next morning, I was about to do my morning meditation when she called me to help her.

My first thought was that if I didn’t do it then, I wouldn’t be able to do it until later that night.

I learned something new that day that I didn’t know was possible: starting my day without meditation and still knowing what God wanted from me—to be of service to my aunt. Instead of getting upset because things didn’t go as I planned, I got up and helped. During the four days I was there, I got her anything she needed: I listened to her shares, I cleaned the house, I cooked for her under her direction, I gave her massages to ease her pain, and I helped her do some exercises.

She said something like, “It seems you didn’t come here to enjoy your holidays.” I simply replied, “Before coming here, I already knew I was coming to be of help.” I don’t know how it feels to love, but nowadays I do know how to take actions of love.

I could never have experienced this if I was not in SA, had a sponsor, worked the Steps, and

sponsored others. I stopped counting the days, stopped being a meetingholic,

started finding the silver lining, began setting aside time to have fun with myself outside the

rooms, and started engaging more with people outside the Program, to name a few. Because

I began having more spiritual experiences. Today, I can say I am happy, joyous, and free.

I’m deeply grateful for being a lust addict—and for wanting to remain one.