My addiction has cost me a great deal over the years. I have been arrested, lost three jobs, thrown out of a religious community and have been divorced. Despite experiencing these consequences, as well as extended periods of sobriety in SA, my addict will still tell me that acting out is a good idea! “Remember the ‘good times’ that you had?” “There’s so much new to explore!” “You can still get something out of it!” There’s a part of me that wants to continue believing all the lies that I tell myself.