Steps 1, 2, 3

Once every week an SA member calls to read to me the First, Second and Third Steps as a kind of surrender prayer. When I listen to him it brings me back to the basics of the program in these Steps. It could be changed depending on the person giving these Steps. Here is what he reads to me when he calls:

STEP ONE: We admitted that we were powerless over lust ― that our lives had become unmanageable.
I remind myself today that I am a sexaholic. This means that I can’t afford to lust anymore. I am allergic to lust. My life will not get better, until I stop lusting and acting out. I can’t take in even the smallest amount of lust safely, because once I start, I can’t stop. There is no such thing, as lusting or acting out and “getting away with it.” Lust is extremely toxic for me. It kills my self-esteem, robs me of direction and any sense of purpose in life. It takes away my hope. It tricks me and lies to me. It makes promises it cannot possibly keep. It goes in directions that scare me. It makes me like a dog on a leash. I am a sexaholic and I am powerless over lust. My life is unmanageable.

STEP TWO: Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
I believe that by God’s grace I am capable of change. If God can keep other sexaholics sober, He can keep me sober too. I know this is true, because I am not a special case. The lust, selfishness, self-centeredness, and willfulness I experience, are the same kind that everyone else has to deal with too. I am not unique and I am not evil. I have an illness, but I also have a loving Higher Power who cares for me and is removing lust from my life. He is restoring me to sanity and will continue to do so if I turn my will and my life to Him in Step Three.

STEP THREE: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
I turn my will and life over to God. I give Him the good and the bad. I might feel weak and faint of heart, and I sometimes don’t even know if I even want to do what is right, but I am willing. I give Him the willingness I have and ask Him to increase it. I love God and His will for my life. He has a purpose for my life which is unique. I therefore do not need to compare myself to anyone else or to compete with them. I turn my will over to God by surrendering all lust hits as toxic, going to meetings, working the Steps with my sponsor, making phone calls, through prayer and meditation, reading the literature of the program, and accepting every trial or difficulty with Joy, recognizing it as an opportunity to learn and grow. I pause when agitated or doubtful and ask for the right thought or action. I ask God each day how I can be of maximum service to His children.

Andre G., Quebec, Canada

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