This is the first meeting of SA in a long time that I’ve been to that no one but myself has attended. It’s OK with me because I need to sit quietly and try to set a course for the day. I’ve been sober two years and two months now. I’ve been forced to attempt the Fourth Step again because I do not know how to live. I’m sure that it’s just a symptom of my underlying spiritual misconnection. I think for the first time I’m trying to find God’s will and incorporate it into my life. My will produces confusion; God’s will produces peace. The solution is to let go, and let God. I’m involved in activities too deep and I need to let others step forward. This is in SA as well as my other affairs. The group is ready to share the responsibilities and I am ready to step back. I’m having to do this in other areas of my life as well. When I fight for my way, I have short-lived victories. I need to let the group conscience develop and learn to get out of my own way.