This is my story. It is not very pretty and I made some real bad choices in my life. Understand that I do not blame all the things in my early life for the things I did later. I used to use the fact that my own father turned me out when I was 12 as a reason for what I did. This was only a way for me not to accept the responsibility for my own actions.

I am an abused child that turned to abusing kids. My real father turned me out, and he had sex with me off and on for years. This led me to grow up believing in the homosexual way of life. When I started out, my sexual partners were about the same ages as myself. As I grew older my sex partners grew younger. I have never been able to maintain any kind of lasting relationship during all these years.

I went to prison after I was hitchhiking and met a person that was an escaped convict. We broke into a few places and got caught. Later I did a lot of foolish and dumb things and was in and out of prisons for years. … I am in prison [now] for having sex with a male minor, his brother, and cousin. … I sincerely believe I owe my Higher Power a very large debt. Doing 12-Step work is taking an otherwise useless person and giving him a reason for still believing his Higher Power had a reason for his being… But when I see people from our groups get out and get into the Program and do good, I feel good about myself.

How could I ever have had any kind of a relationship before when my whole life was all about me? I was so tied up in self-satisfaction that I never had time to care about anyone else or even think about their needs. Sex ruled my life completely and I was still telling myself that I didn’t have any problem. The world was wrong! Not me. Stinking thinking is what led me down this path.

Now maybe you can understand why at this late age and under these circumstances my Higher Power has shown me how to enjoy a sober, stable life. …