Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes

Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes

In my addiction, lust took over my life. Indulging lust in some way was constantly in my mind. Every day, all day, lustful thoughts were occupying me. I was always looking for opportunities. This preoccupation was driving me crazy. I couldn’t stop on my own; for four years I tried. There was a trail of broken promises to myself, and my self-worth was so low I was suicidal. One day – it was a birthday of mine – I thought, “Instead of looking for lust online, why not look for help online?” Right away I found resources to start recovery. Why had I waited so long? That day I put a porn filter on my computer, and soon after I started to go to SA meetings.