“…lust—an attitude demanding that a natural instinct serve unnatural desires” (SA 40).

I am addicted to an attitude. This is very different than being hooked on something that is outside my body, like drugs or alcohol. I am powerless over an attitude that involves instincts other than my sexual instinct. I can abuse my instinct to eat, and indulge in over-eating. I can abuse my instinct to be social, and try to become a “people pleaser.” I use relationships to try to take what is lacking in me. My sexual instinct is certainly the one I have abused the most, and that is the reason why I identify with our program.

I believe my instincts are God-given and therefore good. It is difficult, maybe impossible, for me to decide by myself when the natural becomes unnatural. That is one reason why I need the help of my Higher Power and the help of the group to find and restore the balance to my life. I am extremely grateful for our program, because without it I would still be in the fog of my addiction, lost in the bondage of self.