All my life I felt “different” from the other boys. I was sensitive and didn’t like to play rough sports. I spent most of the time with the girls. At age 12, I became sexually active with males and females. Since the first day, I used sex as I had been using food since I was seven: to medicate the pain of my early childhood abuse. It became so painful that I needed more and more lust to cover up my feelings.

Twenty years later and with almost a year of sobriety, I can see that my homosexual acts were pure lust. They were a desire to get the masculinity I never got from my father or other masculine role model in a healthy way.

I believe that I’m here in SA to deal with my obsession to lust. Knowing how I view my homosexuality, I’m extremely happy to be a part of SA. The greatness about this program is that I don’t need to hear politics. I just need my 12 Steps and my 12 Traditions and working my program.

I also thank SA for the definition of sobriety, being the only “S”-group safe for people like me.

May God Bless!!!