I assume I’m writing to the Central Office. I’m so thankful I received the big white envelope with ESSAY. I was really needing it. After my father died, two weeks ago, I started acting out again. I was perplexed, and numb with fear, I prayed to God for a miracle. The next day I got the envelope in the mail. Hope is renewed again. I must work on my recovery, I really want to get well, I’m willing to do whatever it takes. I want to be with people who understand. I really need fellowship.

I can only imagine what it would be like to be in an SA meeting. I wish I could go to the conference in Baltimore. Just knowing there are people who have done the same sick things that I have, and are now no longer doing them, helps me not want to do these things any longer. It’s the same strength I get from going to AA meetings. Together we can do it! I have hope I can be somebody different, but I’m really not sure what I would be. I’m sort of confused.

I’ve got 21 days and am grateful and proud. I get to Riverside and Redlands meetings but they’re 110 mile round trips.

I again want to thank you for keeping me on the mailing list while I am in prison. My contact from the streets writes or visits me every week. SA is very important to him, as it is to me. In the treatment group here I am pushing SA hard. I am a firm believer that having a support group after leaving here is a must. People that don’t understand our sickness can be very cruel. So it can cause a depression again leading to possibly another acting out.