Deep down I knew what was happening inside, but now it is time to swallow my pride.

And do the work that needs to be done, I have to admit it’s not much fun.

Sometimes I swirl down into despair, I try to reach out but nothing is there.

But lust is a problem I’ve had all my life, I wouldn’t have known if not for my wife.

I wanted all the attention on me, the pain I have caused is now plain to see.

But self-control is a thing I possess, even though the rest is a mess.

The pain is still there for the love I have lost, I will earn it back no matter the cost.

Then I start reading this White Book of mine, they say healing comes with work and some time.

So I go to my meetings and open right up, surrender myself to hope and not luck.