As I sit here in meditation, it is dawning on me the biggest threat lust has on me is it takes the cord of my soul and plugs it into myself, as the White Book suggests. It is absolutely impossible for me to be truly present for my wife, my kids, and real-life significant relationships. Yes, I can fake it for a spell, and all may seem well. But what is actually happening here is I am connecting to others out of my guilt and my “fight or flight” reserve. This always leads to a collision with those I claim to love. This is an inevitable fact. It always happens. So then, what is my only option?