Some sexaholics say they had euphoric recall—making it sound pleasant. Today, I realize it is addictive craving and delusional thinking.

What brought me to SA? I was dating a 22-year-old paroled heroin addict, high-school drop-out, a victim of child molestation. I am a 44-year-old college graduate, a manager. While in therapy, and after no contact with the 22-year-old, I shared with my therapist that I was having “euphoric recall” and wanted to contact her. The psychiatrist immediately said, “That is delusional thinking and addictive craving,” writing it in my file.

Saying “euphoric recall” now is candy coating. If I have lust dreams, I call them drug dreams. If I have thoughts of contacting prior lovers or lust objects, I call it addictive cravings and delusional thinking. I thank God that I am aware.

God, thank You for letting me live in this century with Twelve-Step groups, therapy, and medication. Help me to be open to all the available tools of recovery.