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Not That Different

Hearing others share from their weakness helped him realize he was not alone. Hi, I’m Justin, I'm a grateful recovering sexaholic. I came to SA in 2019 when a priest friend introduced me to the Fellowship. I had just started a new job and it was summertime. He invited me to a meeting, gave me the SA White Book, and encouraged me to attend. At that first meeting, I heard other men share openly about their struggles—not just with masturbation and pornography, but with lust itself. I immediately felt connected. For the first time, I realized I wasn’t alone.

By |2025-09-05T12:47:08-05:00August 8, 2025|Comments Off on Not That Different
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There I Am Also

Good service leadership at all levels is indispensable for our future functioning and safety. I began service in SA to practice leadership based on the principles and values I am learning from our 12-Step program and to learn a new sober way of life and functioning in the world. SA service means I am too focused on helping sexaholics find the Program and affirming them in their recovery.

By |2025-09-07T14:51:36-05:00August 8, 2025|Comments Off on There I Am Also
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The Availability To Dive

This period of being single has given him time to work a rigorous program. For most of my life, I’ve been looking for someone to connect with me and make me whole. I felt “inadequate, unworthy, alone, and afraid” (SA 203), always comparing my insides to the outsides of others. I was terrified of people seeing me for fear that they’d reject me—which was why I never learned to date. It felt too risky.

By |2025-09-08T11:32:09-05:00August 8, 2025|Comments Off on The Availability To Dive
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From Being Thanked to Giving Thanks

Recovery radically changed how he celebrates Father’s Day. I used to think Father’s Day was about waiting for my children to shower me with drawings, or words that would make me feel like a good father. I thought it was a day to sit back and receive—to be told that all my sacrifices were noticed, my sleepless nights appreciated, my worrying understood.

By |2025-09-08T13:43:24-05:00August 8, 2025|Comments Off on From Being Thanked to Giving Thanks
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The Prayer of Divine Remembrance

This tool helps him to release the past. There are moments in life when the past will not let go. I’ve started the path of recovery, made amends where I could, committed to change, and yet — the memories remain. The images return. The shame lingers. While I’ve begun to move forward on the outside, my mind is still caught in the painful echoes of what I've done. This is where the Prayer of Divine Remembrance comes in.

By |2025-09-07T14:50:19-05:00August 8, 2025|Comments Off on The Prayer of Divine Remembrance
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The Power of the Lust Hit

Surrendering Lust helped him to surrender the shame that came with it. Yesterday, I started the day in the usual way with prayers and readings—I thank God for that. I then went to do some errands. About mid-morning, there was a lust hit. I knew the danger, and I acted swiftly. I averted my eyes, got out of the situation, surrendered the look, and prayed. I acknowledged my powerlessness. The lust look is a weakness—it always has been.

By |2025-09-07T14:49:52-05:00August 8, 2025|Comments Off on The Power of the Lust Hit
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Sober, Single, and Grateful

She came to accept Higher Power’s plan for her. I had to learn to love myself, not in the way a conceited person does, but as a precious child of God. I had to learn to enjoy my own company and to remember I am a precious child of God. Not a perfect one, but a work in progress with my Higher Power molding me to His will. I am not in charge of my life; my Higher Power is in charge. I have to accept that Higher Power knows what is best for me. I accept that Higher Power's plan for me is to be single. Being single is not a failure. I am grateful for the lessons my Higher Power has taught me about loving and liking myself as a precious child of God.

By |2025-10-10T19:01:52-05:00August 8, 2025|Comments Off on Sober, Single, and Grateful
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