Per me la lussuria è iniziata come un semplice gioco che facevo con il bambino della porta accanto. Non avrei mai immaginato che un gioco del genere potesse trasformarsi in uno “stile di vita”. La mia famiglia prestava più attenzione alla mia bella e intelligente sorella e, per attirare maggiormente la loro attenzione, ho iniziato a rubare da loro. Non funzionava. Non sapevo come dire: “Sono qui! Guardatemi! Amatemi! Ho bisogno che mio padre mi abbracci!”.
Il capitolo del Libro Bianco intitolato “Lussuria - la forza che sta dietro la dipendenza”, è, secondo me, una magnifica introduzione di cosa stia alla base della lussuria. In quel capitolo Roy definisce la lussuria come “un atteggiamento che pretende che un istinto naturale sia asservito a desideri innaturali” (SA 41). Questa è stata certamente la mia esperienza.
Pour moi, la luxure sexuelle a commencé par un simple jeu auquel je jouais avec le gamin d'à côté. Je n'aurais jamais imaginé qu'un tel jeu puisse devenir un « mode de vie ». Ma famille accordait plus d'attention à ma sœur, belle et intelligente, et pour attirer leur attention, j'ai commencé à les voler pour obtenir plus d'attention. Cela n'a pas fonctionné. Je ne savais pas comment dire : « Je suis là ! Regardez-moi ! Aimez-moi ! J'ai besoin que mon père me prenne dans ses bras ! »
J'ai pris contact avec un membre des SA en juin 2017 en réponse à son courriel envoyé deux mois auparavant, et j'ai su que j'avais un problème avec mon comportement compulsif. Au quotidien, je satisfaisais mes « besoins » comme un automate programmé pour effectuer des recherches répétitives. Je cherchais à combler le vide terrible que ma vie secrète cachait depuis des lustres.
Le chapitre du Livre blanc intitulé "La luxure - La force derrière la dépendance" est, à mon avis, une magnifique introduction aux fondements de ce qu'est réellement la luxure. Dans ce chapitre, Roy définit la luxure comme "une attitude exigeant qu'un instinct naturel serve des désirs contre-nature" (SA 40). C'est certainement ce que j'ai vécu.
For me, sexual lust started as a simple game that I played with the kid next door. I never imagined that such a game could develop into a "way of life." My family paid more attention to my beautiful, smart sister, and to attract their attention, I started stealing from them to get more attention. This didn’t work. I didn’t know how to say, “I’m here! See me! Love me! I need my father to hold me!”
I reached out to an SA member in June 2017 in response to his email sent two months before, and I knew I had a problem with my compulsive behavior. On a daily basis, I was satisfying my “needs” like an automaton programmed to perform repetitive searches. I kept trying to fill the terrible emptiness that my secret life hid for ages.
The chapter in the White Book titled "Lust—The Force Behind the Addiction," is, in my view, a magnificent introduction to the underpinnings of what lust is really all about. In that chapter Roy defines lust as "an attitude demanding that a natural instinct serve unnatural desires" (SA 40). That was certainly my experience.
I attend the regular meetings of my home group every week, but currently, except for me, there are only male fellows there. However, as a “woman and a sexual minority,” I have been accepted into this group and feel like I belong and have a connection.
Some years ago, we started an online Persian SA meeting, which was the first online SA meeting as well as the first mixed meeting in our fellowship in Iran. In the beginning, there were some technical and online cultural issues but overall no major problems.
