Working the Steps on fear allowed her to take action under God’s guidance.

I’ve been married for almost 50 years. My husband has been unbelievably cruel, but I’ve been afraid to leave. My biggest fear has been that I wouldn’t be able to support myself, that I’d be homeless. 

My husband laughs at me, telling people, “My wife thinks she’ll be a bag lady! Haha! (A bag lady means a homeless woman.) But I believe in a Power bigger than my fear.

A year ago, I told my husband that I couldn’t endure living with him any longer. It took me nine months before I was brave enough to move out. I was so afraid. But I believe in a Power bigger than my fear, a Power that can relieve me of my insanity. 

I’ve had so much fear around money. I’m not promised economic security. However, I am promised that the fear of economic insecurity will leave. 

When I’m afraid, I ask Him to remove my fear from me and direct my attention to what He would have me be, and at once I commence to outgrow fear. It’s not instantaneous, but if I ask, it will begin to happen. God is replacing calamity (my circumstances) with serenity (my feelings). 

I might have a job. I live right in front of a golf course. They asked me to help plant flowers. God is providing in amazing ways. 

It wasn’t a quick decision to live apart from my husband. I’m doing the best that I can. I humbly pray, and then I move. That’s when He can redirect a moving object, and that object is me!