Absolute Honesty With Myself, My Sponsor, and My Higher Power
My job is to take care of a large property with an orchard, a garden, and a house. A few weeks ago, I found myself in a completely new situation I have never been in before.
My job is to take care of a large property with an orchard, a garden, and a house. A few weeks ago, I found myself in a completely new situation I have never been in before.
I moved to a regional city on the east coast of Australia over 5 years ago. There were two SA meetings in the city and sex addiction was a very taboo topic and still is very taboo.
Bishops, priests, and nuns throughout the Catholic Church are becoming increasingly aware of SA and supportive of recommending that parishioners with lust addiction contact the program for help. The Europe and Middle East Region (EMER) has recently been experiencing the fruit of focusing special attention on this outreach for the past several years and promoting the sharing of experience among its fifteen intergroups.
“But I don’t want to share that …” “Then you won’t get well!” That was my sponsor’s response to most of the fears I experience. I cannot get sober in isolation. Nor can I get it if I don’t give it. The SA group I got sober in was very strong in service. That’s where I was introduced to “Hospitals and Institutions.”
From the moment I started to take this program seriously and work the Steps with a sponsor who works the Steps with a sponsor of his own (and so on) it has been crystal clear to me that our main focus and primary purpose is the Twelfth Step—carrying the message.
When I became a Trustee on the SA Board of Trustees in the summer of 2014, I was clearly a newcomer to this level of service, but excited to give my best to whatever I could do to help share our awesome message to the suffering sexaholic.
Gdy wczoraj wróciłem z lokalnego zlotu SA, czułem się w miarę szczęśliwy, związany z ludźmi i spokojny - ale nie do końca. Obecność jednego kolegi zakłóciła mój spokój do tego stopnia, że przez cały weekend zmagałem się z obsesją na punkcie jego i jego zachowania.
To jedno z haseł programu, które utkwiło mi w pamięci po tym, jak uczestniczyłem w pierwszym wirtualnym mitingu SA tu na Filipinach. Bałem się i wahałem, czy pójść na miting SA, ponieważ zaprzeczałem i wątpiłem w to, że jestem uzależniony od seksu.
Moja sponsorka i członkowie anglojęzycznej grupy domowej zasugerowali, abym wymieniła rzeczy, za które jestem wdzięczna w trzeźwości. Prawdopodobnie nie mogli dłużej znieść mojego narzekania i dlatego to zasugerowali.
Dla mojego uzależnionego mózgu z pamięcią złotej rybki, hasła są trafne, łatwe do zapamiętania, a kiedy otrzymam gotowość, możliwe do zrealizowania. Tak wiele przychodzi mi na myśl: Jeden dzień na raz, Dobre Uporządkowane Prowadzenie, Odpuść i pozwól Bogu czy Wyluzuj.