Holistic Recovery

کمک گرفتن از بیرون از برنامه

اولین احساس خوبی که در زندگی به یاد می‌آورم، زمانی بود که من پنج ساله بودم و پدرم یک بطری آبجو رولینگ راک به من داد. وقتی در گوشه ای نشسته بودم و در حال نوشیدن بودم، تأثیر الکل را احساس کردم. وقتی از آن طرف اتاق به پدرم نگاه می کردم، فقط به او عشق می ورزیدم. حس فوق العاده ای بود. حس خوب بعدی که به یاد دارم تقریباً در همان زمان بود و مربوط به دختری به نام نانسی بود که او نیز حدوداً پنج ساله بود. یک روز گرم تابستانی بود، و من نانسی کوچک را در آغوشم گرفتم، او را نزد مادرم بردم و گفتم: "من و نانسی قرار است ازدواج کنیم." شادی و لذتی را که در درونم احساس می کردم به یاد می آورم. تا شانزده سال دیگر آن احساس را نداشتم.

By |2023-12-20T05:26:01-06:00December 20, 2023|Comments Off on کمک گرفتن از بیرون از برنامه

باورنکردنی ترین چیزدرجهان

درحالی که هفته پیش دریک کارگاه دوازده قدمی شرکت میکردم،فرصت این را داشتم که تجربه نیرو وامیدم را درباره موضوع بخشش به اشتراک بگذارم.پس از کارگاه،ازمن خواسته شدکه مشارکتم رابرای مجلهessay بنویسم،که درادامه این متن برایتان آورده ام:

By |2023-12-20T05:19:43-06:00December 20, 2023|Comments Off on باورنکردنی ترین چیزدرجهان

From Train Wreck to Instrument of Her Higher Power

A train wreck, that is how those who have seen me enter the program sometimes tend to describe me.The worst part is that I can't even deny it. My life had become unmanageable in all areas. Because of my addiction, I was no longer able to take care of myself in the most basic ways.

By |2024-08-23T12:24:59-05:00December 13, 2023|Comments Off on From Train Wreck to Instrument of Her Higher Power

Many Problems, Threefold Solution

“We saw that our problem was threefold: physical, emotional and spiritual. Healing had to come about in all three” (SA 204). As a recovering sexaholic, I have taken this statement from “The Solution” to heart. With a little reflection, I can remember what it was like before coming into the rooms of SA over twenty years ago. This healing can only continue with the program tools of working the Steps and reading literature, going to meetings, working with a sponsor, and the help of group members.

By |2024-08-23T12:24:13-05:00December 13, 2023|Comments Off on Many Problems, Threefold Solution

Dear ESSAY

An incident today was another lesson in emotional sobriety. I live in a “golf cart community.” Lots of golf courses, but we also use golf carts to go to the store, to dinner, to recreation, to meetings. Many streets have a dedicated golf cart lane beside the normal traffic lane.

By |2023-12-13T16:44:20-06:00December 13, 2023|Comments Off on Dear ESSAY

Always Wearing My Program Helmet

In an AA article, I once read about a fellow who is in the military. He wrote that he is taught to always wear a helmet, that it's a habit ingrained in him. Going outside means putting on a helmet, period. In the beginning, it was something he had to learn, something people had to keep reminding him to do, and something that had to become a real habit. But eventually, he did it without thinking.

By |2024-08-23T12:15:11-05:00December 13, 2023|Comments Off on Always Wearing My Program Helmet

How I Escaped the Lust Valley

My name is Mervat, and I am a recovering sexaholic, or to be more precise, a lustaholic, from Egypt. I walked through the valley of the shadow of Death—or Lust—since I was a four-year-old. My full-throttle sexual acting-out started when I was 18 years old. I lived in that Lust Valley for more than 3 decades, not knowing the wages I had to pay: my life. It was a miracle that I found SA because all I wanted was to live.

By |2024-08-23T12:19:10-05:00December 13, 2023|Comments Off on How I Escaped the Lust Valley

A Spectrum of Colors

It all started with a pinching pain I felt when doing my Fourth Step work over the past three months. I thought that I would be fine in time. For me, Step One had been the most difficult: seeing my disease from a very close distance and accepting my powerlessness over it and the unmanageability caused due to lust in my whole life.

By |2024-08-23T12:17:04-05:00December 13, 2023|Comments Off on A Spectrum of Colors