SA Stories

Drunk on Rage

The other morning I was going out for a run. A neighborhood next to ours has a hill coming down to a stop sign. I have run past this entrance several times and noticed that people tend to drive down the hill at a high rate of speed. This leads them to roll through the stop sign without stopping.

By |2024-05-03T15:01:16-05:00December 22, 2019|Comments Off on Drunk on Rage

Gravitation Towards God

I’m listening to a podcast with one former Heavyweight boxing champion, and a new Heavyweight champion. The two boxers are talking about how the younger man’s life has changed since becoming the new champion. Several things are discussed like the money, proving doubters wrong, all the work they both put in to achieve that title, and, of course, the excitement of the fans!

By |2024-05-03T15:01:10-05:00December 22, 2019|Comments Off on Gravitation Towards God

Pervasive Arrogance

I joined the committee to plan our semi-annual retreat because I have a lot of experience planning these events. But this time I stepped aside to let others organize it. The theme was chosen over my objections, as I preferred the first idea they came up with. I let that go. They chose to not pick breakout topics, but allow the leaders to choose their topics when they signed up. I didn’t think this was a good idea. But, I let that go.

By |2024-08-25T13:57:41-05:00December 22, 2019|Comments Off on Pervasive Arrogance

Doing Enough Service Work

Service is a critical part of any recovery program and is one of the most poorly understood parts of Sexaholics Anonymous. For seventeen years my idea of service was flawed and hindered my ability to stay sober. I thought that service was about being of service only to addicts. I am writing in order to help those who may have a similar understanding of service.

By |2025-06-11T12:07:02-05:00October 4, 2019|Comments Off on Doing Enough Service Work

A New Freedom

Since childhood, I’ve had a recurring, upsetting dream where I found myself standing before my father in fear of punishment. Feeling guilty for engaging in inappropriate behavior with other kids my age, I would just freeze and stare at my dad, unable to look into his eyes, while trying not to show fear or to cry.

By |2024-08-05T14:43:21-05:00October 4, 2019|Comments Off on A New Freedom

Single and Serene

I viewed men as toys or saviors but never as human beings. They filled my time until I found THE ONE who became my god. The fear of not being loved or accepted drove me into depression, misery and fear of abandonment. I believed that the ONE would fix me and fulfill my fantasies and dreams. But each time I sank deeper into a living hell, taking the abuse and telling myself that I was the problem.

By |2025-08-08T10:56:24-05:00August 9, 2019|Comments Off on Single and Serene

The Man Who Met God

There was a sexaholic walking down the street. He’d been there before, but this time, as he was walking, he met God. Now God had something in His hand and it looked good to the sexaholic.

By |2024-04-14T14:03:19-05:00August 9, 2019|Comments Off on The Man Who Met God

I Got This!

How many times have I made that declaration? Hundreds, maybe thousands of times I have said those exact words. Recently I watched a TV survival show where 12 contestants were dumped in the ocean within swimming distance of various islands. They were required to write journals before and during the show. Everyone wrote some form of “I got this” at the beginning.

By |2024-04-21T14:55:46-05:00May 11, 2019|Comments Off on I Got This!

Why I Love Recovery

I love being in a program that cultivates both spirituality and self-development. I crave closeness to God and this program has helped me to find a spirituality that really satisfies, in addition to leading me back to the religion of my upbringing. I have found a God Who is loving and all-powerful, as described in Alcoholics Anonymous, and Who wants to have a relationship with me.

By |2024-04-21T14:55:42-05:00May 11, 2019|Comments Off on Why I Love Recovery