החיים הם מסע פרידה ארוך
התחלתי את תכנית 12 הצעדים הזאת מהתחתית אחרי שנאפתי. מה שנותר ממני אמר: "אני יודע שיש פתרון. אני הולך להתאבד ולהאשים את כולם. זאת אשמתם".
الحياة هي وداع مستمر
I started this 12 Step program from the bottom after committing adultery. What was left was me saying, “I know a solution. I'm going to commit suicide, and then I'll blame everybody else. That it’s all their fault.”
Das Leben ist ein ständiges Abschiednehmen
Ich begann dieses 12-Schritte-Programm von ganz unten, nachdem ich fremdgegangen bin. Was von mir übrig blieb, war der Gedanke: „Ich kenne eine Lösung. Ich werde Selbstmord begehen und dann allen anderen die Schuld geben. Es ist alles ihre Schuld.“
La vie est une succession d’adieux
J'ai commencé ce programme en 12 étapes en partant du bas de l'échelle après avoir commis un adultère. Il ne me restait plus qu'à dire : "Je connais une solution. Je vais me suicider, puis je rejetterai la faute sur les autres. Que tout est de leur faute."
La vida es un continuo decir adiós
Hasta que solo quedemos Dios y yo Comencé este programa de 12 Pasos desde lo más bajo después de cometer adulterio. Lo único que quedaba de mí era decir: “Conozco una solución. Me voy a suicidar, y luego culparé a todos los demás. Todo es culpa de ellos.”
Breaking Through Resentment and Numbness
I didn't know what grief was or what it felt like before recovery. Lust numbed all my emotions, positive and negative. I rarely had feelings when pets passed away. It felt like it was just part of life.
Life is a Continuous Saying Goodbye
I started this 12 Step program from the bottom after committing adultery. What was left was me saying, “I know a solution. I'm going to commit suicide, and then I'll blame everybody else. That it’s all their fault.”
A Look into Step Four
Seeing My Part Without Taking Blame Step Four was eye-opening for me. It was also hard to look at, written on paper, what I had done and who I was. I just didn’t want to be that person anymore.
Step One and the Grace of God
I've had several conversations over the last 24 hours about Step One. It seems that everything right down to the core of my being resisted admitting my powerlessness. This has been, quite possibly, the biggest hurdle in my recovery journey. Admitting complete defeat felt like dying, it felt like I’d be giving up, it felt like the end. And it was the end—the end of my old life and the only passageway through which I could be born into the new life. Freedom from the bondage of self is a free gift that can only be accessed by the grace of God.
Taking the First Step
For me, the most important Step is the First Step. Taking the First Step is the motivator for all of the other Steps. I am fully convinced that I have a fatal malady beyond my ability to fix, so I move forward on the other Steps. Step One is a process of surrendering pride. It’s not the end of pride, but hopefully, God willing, it can help create a daily reprieve.
