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Lors de ma première réunion des Sexoliques anonymes, j'ai entendu quelqu'un lire « Le problème », et j'ai su que j'étais au bon endroit. Dans le Livre blanc, Roy a écrit
رؤية نفسي في المرآة
قبل أن أصبح رصينا، لم أكن من محبي القراءة. في الواقع، لم أقرأ كتابًا من أوله لآخره قط. كدت أنهي قراءة كتاب في المدرسة لأنه أخذني إلى عالم خيالي بعيدًا عن الواقع. ومع ذلك، كانت معظم القراءة بالنسبة لي محزنة ولا معنى لها.
ايجاد الرب في البرنامج
عندما انضممت إلى س.م في الخريف من ٢٠٢٠. كنت محطمة ولكن على استعداد لتلقى التوجيهات. ذلك لأنني كنت يائسة جدا. أتاحت لي سنوات عديدة من الخبرة في م.ك.م بعض المزايا، بما في ذلك اجتماعات دراسة الكتاب التي لا حصر لها والتعرف الجيد على الكتاب الكبير و (اثنتا عشر واثنتا عشر. حتى أنني تذكرت بعض الفقرات مثل صفحة ٤١٧ عن القبول، التي ما زلت أستطيع تلاوتها كلمة بكلمة. الأشياء التي تذكرتها لا زالت تعمل كنوع من مكتبة مرجعية عقلية.
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في اجتماعي الأوّل في زمالة سكّيري الجنس المجهولين، سمعتُ شخصاً يقرأ "المشكلة"، وعرفت أنّني في المكان الصّحيح. في الكتاب الأبيض كَتَب روي:
The ESSAY Enhances Our Meetings
I’ve had the pleasure of attending quite a few SA meetings since 2020 when I first joined the Fellowship. In some of those meetings, we used ESSAY magazine articles in our literature rotation. I’m writing this to highlight how two articles from the ESSAY were very impactful in meetings I attended.
Seeing Myself in the Mirror
Before getting sober, I was not a book person. In fact, I had never read a book cover-to-cover. I almost finished one book in school because it took me into a fantasy world, away from reality. Most reading for me, though, was distressing and pointless.
Finding God in the Literature
When I joined SA in the autumn of 2020, I was broken but willing to take direction. That’s because I was so desperate. Many years of experience in AA did afford me some advantages, though, including countless book study meetings and a good familiarity with the Big Book and the Twelve and Twelve. I even remembered some passages, like page 417 about acceptance, which I could still recite word for word. The stuff I memorised still serves as a kind of mental reference library.
Are You Willing to Go to Any Lengths?
At my first meeting of Sexaholics Anonymous, I heard someone read “The Problem,” and I knew that I was in the right place. In the White Book Roy wrote:
Worshiping Myself
As a chronic, hopeless sexaholic, I have no human defense against lust. When I lust, I cannot stop. As a chronic sexaholic I have a physical allergy to whatever chemicals, neurotransmitters, hormones—you name it—that are produced by my own brain and body when I am lusting or engaging in selfish sexual behavior. My mental and physical reaction to those substances differ from the reaction of normal people.
Lust is Much More
I love plants! I have plants in my living room, kitchen, bedroom…everywhere! All that greenery in the house makes me feel good, and since I'm in recovery, I can take good care of them, too. Before, all my plants were dying. I just wasn't able to give them what they needed, which isn’t surprising, considering I could barely keep myself alive.
