SA l’a aidé à rester sobre tandis que la thérapie l’a aidé à guérir de son traumatisme et de sa honte.
Ma femme a découvert ma dépendance pour la première fois avant notre mariage. Je lui ai promis que si elle me donnait une autre chance, je passerais le reste de ma vie à me racheter auprès d’elle. Cela s’est avéré être un mensonge.

Travailler les étapes sur la peur lui a permis d’agir sous la direction de Dieu.
Je suis mariée depuis près de 50 ans. Mon mari a été incroyablement cruel, mais j’avais peur de le quitter. Ma plus grande crainte était de ne pas pouvoir subvenir à mes besoins, de me retrouver sans domicile.

Il a vécu une transformation grâce à SA qui l’aide à voir sa véritable identité.
Le problème n’est pas le problème !
Lorsque je suis arrivé à SA en 1999 en raison de crises personnelles, familiales et relationnelles, mes sentiments étaient très confus. Je n’avais vraiment aucun sentiment, sauf de la colère. Je savais exactement quoi faire et comment résoudre rapidement tous les problèmes de ma vie et revenir rapidement à la « normale », en jouant le jeu de la famille heureuse.

Les Étapes ont éliminé la honte et le perfectionnisme, une combinaison mortelle qui l’empêchait d’être vulnérable.

Identifier le problème et cesser son comportement égocentrique lui permet de vivre dans la confiance et dans la volonté de Dieu.

Congratulations to Gary L. for winning the Best Caption Contest with his caption, “Coming out from the shell is hard for me too.” He will receive a free copy of the October edition in the mail. Also, congratulations to Gene T. for winning second place with the caption, “Ma’am, could you please help me on these steps?” First and second place winners will have their captions featured in this edition’s printed and PDF versions.

A license plate reminds him that recovery is one day at a time.
One day in the spring of 2024, I had an appointment with my eye doctor in Oshawa, Ontario (Canada). Parked right outside the office building was this motorcycle. I stood stock still for a moment, looking at the license plate—ODAAT—and the yellow bumper sticker above it—ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Fusagasugá witnessed the 13th National Convention of SA Colombia. It was a meeting of souls, where hope blossomed, and unity became real.
There, I discovered that there are no broken people—only valuable human beings fighting against this painful disease. I felt the presence of our Higher Power everywhere. Every day, I fall more in love with SA.

Taking a look at himself and sharing what he found let the light of recovery shine on his shame.
An unknown SA member said, “If you want light, keep the curtains open. The curtains are made of selfishness.”
I was not only driven by a hundred forms of fear, as the Big Book says, but also by a thousand forms of guilt and shame.

Step Nine showed him how to proceed without putting himself down.
I am Tim, from Brussels. I discovered I am a sexaholic about two years ago. After a summer of destructive acting out, a painful rock bottom, and therapy, it became clear that I needed help from a 12-Step program. It was a great relief. I have been addicted to lust since my teenage years without knowing it. However, I was fascinated by images of the opposite sex and discovered the power of masturbation, but I also learned I had to hide and lie about it.

A reflection on 30 years of working the Program reveals a life worth living.
Thirty years ago today, August 8th, 1995, I walked into a church, sat down in a room full of strangers, and said: “My name is Bill and I’m…” Thirty years ago today, I started on a journey called Recovery.

SA helped her see more clearly how she was holding herself back from healing fully.
I haven’t taken much time as of late to consider the role that trauma plays in my consistent relapses. I was abused sexually by my father at 13, and I had sexually abusive relationships from ages 19-22. I entered SA in July of 2021 without realizing my last relationship had ended with me being sexually assaulted. The brain is a funny organ like that. Through the fog of addiction to porn and my brain trying to protect me, the pieces didn’t fall into place until a friend showed me an article that described my ex perfectly, and that final puzzle piece of sexual abuse clicked.

She found the freedom to choose in sobriety.
Sobriety is a gift that your wise decisions give you. Sobriety is not limited to stopping sexual relations with another person or with yourself—that is only the beginning. Sobriety is having sanity in the face of life. It is exercising the self-control that already resides within you, that was given to you by your Higher Power to choose between what is good for you and what harms you.

With his sponsor’s help, he learned to deal with shame and guilt.
As we persist, a brand-new kind of confidence is born, and the sense of relief at finally facing ourselves is indescribable (Twelve and Twelve 50).

His gratitude list was the hammer that crushed his guilt and shame.
I didn’t think I was fearful. I was a strong, tough male who had gotten in fights before and played contact sports like football, hockey, and rugby. So I thought that I wasn’t afraid of anything.

An elder member in SA helped him see that he was addicted to himself.
“You’re the most arrogant [person] I have ever met!” Although a more colorful word was used instead of “person,” this statement still saved my life.

SA taught him that letting go of guilt was not only okay, but necessary
Fear and shame were awaiting my entrance into the world. My grandmother was harassed and bullied for her parents’ financial struggles, language, skin color, and country of origin. So she resolved to protect her children from the same fate by refusing to pass down her native language, traditions, customs, or history, and insisting that they marry spouses who embodied her idealized notion of an acceptable national archetype. My mother’s inherited shame about her background then manifested itself by overcompensating for her own perceived shortcomings. This included raising children who embodied her idealized notion of success: good grades, etiquette, careers, marriages, etc.

A powerful practice that prevents him from reverting to his past ways.
Today everything felt serendipitous.
I met a couple who were splendiferous.
Ladyewell, near Preston, a Holy Shrine.
I met a couple who gladdened my mind.

A letter of experience, strength, and hope to encourage the Fellowship.
Dear friends,
There is a strong message that was recently shared in our West African SA fellowship. It comes from Tradition Five in the White Book, page 209: “Each group (SA meeting) has but one primary purpose—to carry its message to the sexaholic who still suffers.” There is a deep meaning in this Tradition.

“He will show you how to create the fellowship you crave.”
My name is Levi and I’m a recovering sexaholic in central Nebraska in the USA. I have been sexually sober since July 20, 2017.